{"id":229000,"date":"2023-11-01T05:01:44","date_gmt":"2023-11-01T09:01:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lithub.com\/?p=229000"},"modified":"2023-10-31T15:46:58","modified_gmt":"2023-10-31T19:46:58","slug":"a-palestinian-meditation-in-a-time-of-annihilation","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lithub.com\/a-palestinian-meditation-in-a-time-of-annihilation\/","title":{"rendered":"A Palestinian Meditation in a Time of Annihilation"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>I<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Hiba Abu Nada, 32, wrote and published her final poem ten days before Israeli bombs killed her and many others on October 20, 2023, in Gaza. She had a B.A in organic chemistry and a master\u2019s degree in clinical nutrition. In her short life she managed to publish one novel, <em>Oxygen is Not for the Dead<\/em>. The speaker in Abu Nada\u2019s final poem is an inner I, probably the voice of God welling up inside. Here is an excerpt:<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">I shelter you<br \/>\nand the children who<br \/>\nare sleeping<br \/>\nas chicks in the lap<br \/>\nof their nest<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">they don\u2019t walk<br \/>\nin their dreams<br \/>\nbecause death<br \/>\ntowards the house<br \/>\nwalks<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">\u2026.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">I shelter you<br \/>\nfrom wound and woe,<br \/>\nand with seven verses<br \/>\nI shield<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">the taste of orange<br \/>\nfrom phosphorus,<br \/>\nthe color of clouds<br \/>\nfrom smoke.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>II<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>In August 2017, Hurricane Harvey passed through Houston loaded with rain. Our house was among the countless houses that flooded. Feelings of displacement, panic, attachment to material losses, and PTSD from growing up Palestinian in this world were initially overwhelming. Quickly, however, they were replaced with a sense of annoyance at the effort required to restore one\u2019s life to its previous privilege. We did well. We had good insurance, could afford our copay, and sympathized with the less fortunate.<\/p>\n<p>On the morning that water entered our house, we rushed, all four of us, to salvage what we could from the first floor. Some of those items were my books, especially those on the lower shelves. Months later, after the house was remodeled, I got those books out of their boxes to reshelve them. For days, I was obsessively lost in my memories: books I had read decades ago, my marginalia and underlined sentences, flagged paragraphs, arrows, earmarks, all modes of signs and signals I had left behind\u2014like a map for myself in an afterworld I was certain would come but didn\u2019t know how or when: what I once was, how I once thought, felt, searched, loved, and whether I still feel the same.<\/p>\n<p>Isn\u2019t this what burial rites are about? We send our lost loved ones, who are part of ourselves, to an afterlife, with or without accessories, but always with words, prayers that launch their departure into our memories. And so it is with the parts of ourselves we bury in our books: memories of the self that, when we revisit in the marginalia we leave behind on the printed page, we encounter as a version of our afterlife.<\/p>\n<p>Hiba Abu Nada did not live long enough to encounter her afterlife through her books.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>III<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I now pause for a brief moment of silence for the murdered Palestinians in Gaza and elsewhere. And for all the murdered and maimed everywhere, civilians or not. Imagine extending this equal humanity to everyone, every time. It\u2019s what oppressors fear most. Because they are invariably the greater victimizers.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">I now pause for a brief moment of silence for the murdered Palestinians in Gaza and elsewhere. And for all the murdered and maimed everywhere, civilians or not.<\/span>\n<p>What happens to the unburied? Are the Palestinians permitted to count and retrieve their dead? The American administration, through the mouth of President Biden, says that the Palestinians can\u2019t have their dead and bury them, too. The high and rising number of Palestinians killed since October 7 is suspect, propaganda. Palestinians lie, as they often do in English, even when they are murdered. America speaks for them in a pathologic projective identification that guards the US propensity to mutilate those it kills\u2014a marker of the national narrative affinity with the Israeli narrative.<\/p>\n<p>In <a href=\"https:\/\/bookshop.org\/a\/132\/9781803090832\"><em>The Blue Light<\/em><\/a>, Palestinian writer Hussein Barghouthi says, somewhat flippantly, \u201cAmerica produces schizophrenics like it produces sandwiches.\u201d I am not certain if he was in conversation with Deleuze &amp; Guattari\u2019s work on schizophrenia and capitalism, the manufacturing of loneliness as a desire to seek and dread simultaneously\u2014exported as a universal aspiration, insignia of freedom. But for Barghouthi, Palestine in English is one trigger for the collective psychosis, the distortion of self-perception, that seems to afflict the American and Israeli vernacular, especially in times of crisis.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">What happens to the unburied? Are the Palestinians permitted to count and retrieve their dead? <\/span>\n<p>I understand that Israel and the US are not individuals, and any blanket statement about a collective is arguable, if not dangerous. Still, if you examine, with an open, honorable heart all the negative things by which \u201cPalestine\u201d is named in English, you will find that those things also name America and Israel. Projective identification as mass phenomenon.<\/p>\n<p>Palestine becomes the mirror of a Western self that struggles to recognize itself in the mirror. Each time this version of the self plays peekaboo in front of the mirror, it cannot see itself. When it opens its eyes, the person in the mirror is Palestinian.<\/p>\n<p>This process, however, limits its practitioner from, or denies them access to, their own better angels. Sooner or later, one cannot see their darkness as their own.<\/p>\n<p>Neither America nor Europe, as Aim\u00e8 C\u00e8saire said, seem able or willing to solve their colonial addiction, their civilizational motif. Israel is a translation of that failure, a prized Western desire. But Israel has agency in mechanizing this desire.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">Neither America nor Europe, as Aim\u00e8 C\u00e8saire said, seem able or willing to solve their colonial addiction, their civilizational motif. <\/span>\n<p>Israel and the United States erase even Palestinian ghosts from existence.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>IV <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Years ago, I received a query from a prominent editor about a line in Mahmoud Darwish\u2019s long poem, \u201cThe \u2018Red Indian\u2019s\u2019 Penultimate Speech to the White Man,\u201d (<a href=\"https:\/\/bookshop.org\/a\/132\/9780374532475\"><em>If I Were Another<\/em><\/a>). The poem channels Chief Seattle\u2019s voice and spirit. In the poem\u2019s second section, the line in question follows an address to Columbus, \u201cthe free [who] has the right to find India in any sea, \/ and the right to name our ghosts as pepper or Indian.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The line in question is this: \u201cYou have burst seventy million hearts\u2026enough, \/ enough for you to return from our death as monarch of the new time\u201d:<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">isn\u2019t it time we met, stranger, as two strangers of one time<br \/>\nand one land, the way strangers meet by a chasm?<br \/>\nWe have what is ours\u2026and we have what is yours of sky.<br \/>\nYou have what is yours\u2026and what is ours of air and water.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cI just don\u2019t get where he got the seventy million from?\u201d the editor asked.<\/p>\n<p>I didn\u2019t reply. I didn\u2019t wonder about the accuracy of Darwish\u2019s claim. Maybe he included all the Natives annihilated in the Americas over the centuries. The only thought I had in my head was, \u201cIs this really what\u2019s bothering you about the poem?\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Years later, in a daydream, a marginalia of my soul visited me, and it spoke thus: \u201cDo you remember those seventy million punctured hearts in Darwish\u2019s poem? If you\u2019re ever asked again, if the person who asks you says that historical studies show the number is not possible or whatever, remember the buffalos.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The buffalo hearts are also native hearts.<br \/>\nWho will count the donkeys, dogs, and cats in Gaza?<br \/>\nThe birds will return.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>V<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>But what does all this have to do with Hurricane Harvey that flooded my imperial city in August 2017?<\/p>\n<p>In August 2005, I returned from Darfur after serving with Doctors Without Borders for a few months. I returned to Hurricane Katrina next door in New Orleans. I returned to displaced, disenfranchised, distraught Americans, mostly Black. Anderson Cooper\u2019s heart was in genuine agony on TV. His reporting was forthright and compassionate.<\/p>\n<p>Still, I found him pitiable. I didn\u2019t doubt his intention but I recognized that this was his breakthrough moment. I was already aware of the price of the ticket for anyone who auditions for the cast of the longest running play in our times, the American dream. Even suffering in empire is a capitalist translation.<\/p>\n<p>Today, the whole of CNN is a propaganda machine for the erasure of Palestinians, an achievement on par with any other US propaganda machine doing the same thing on the opposite side of the nonpartisan aisle. How wondrous that Palestinian murder and destruction unite American media.<\/p>\n<p>In the next presidential election cycle, many Americans have a tough choice to make. Does one vote for those who sanction, drive, fund, weaponize, and execute ethnic cleansing of Palestinians on the continuum of genocide? To not do so risks plunging America into greatness again. But we Americans have faced seemingly insurmountable obstacles before, and we do not have to cut off our nose to spite our face. Palestinians, on the other hand, are faceless, nameless.<\/p>\n<p>Can you imagine if, for a year after the annihilation of Gaza has ceased, the US culture industry relentlessly features Palestinian voices, narratives, without the customary censorship? What if solidarity with Palestine in English becomes profitable?<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>VI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I found it. I was flipping through my books that survived the flood in 2017, searching for something I couldn\u2019t name. I found it. A part of my old self that I had sent to my future self, my afterlife. Toni Morrison\u2019s <a href=\"https:\/\/bookshop.org\/a\/132\/9781400033447\"><em>Tar Baby<\/em><\/a>. I haven\u2019t thought about it since I read it two decades ago. And there it was, after the flood and the house restoration. Like a relic in one of my tombs. My marginalia on its pages. I skimmed through it and arrived at a long passage, which I instantly restructured, word for word, into a poem. Toni Morrison came back to me as the great poet she was.<\/p>\n<p>For many, the poem may be difficult to stomach. Some may argue that, taken out of its narrative context, the text is stripped of its necessary nuance and manipulated as ad hominem. The character who spoke the passage, for example, possessed contradictions and imperfections that only the novel can elucidate. Yet, I find Morrison\u2019s text funny, humor its saving grace that carries its truth into the afterworld. I title it with a line that concludes the passage: \u201cBasking in the Cold Light of One of the Killers of the World.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>And in these long Palestinian days and nights, whose sun is Gaza, a sun that will not end after the massacre ends, I need to crack a smile.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>VII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>As I witness my collective Palestinian death unfold live on digital media and non-American TV, as I have become \u201ca river of bodies into one,\u201d a conduit for common decency, condolences, solidarity that affirms and elevates me, a survivor who has his dead, a survivor with a familiar name, relatable sound, relevant corpus, a vessel for the outpouring of empathy whose primary mode offers me the visibility that can\u2019t be uncoupled from market forces\u2014and it is true that my books, along with those of several Palestinian writers, have been selling well since, in my case, I have announced my dead to America, at least until the mainstream media became uninterested in parading my grief, since my grief did not come without troublesome talk about equal humanity, a political condition for freedom, an unthinkable condition for the US and Israel vis-a-vis Palestinians, a condition whose absence is necessary for the continued destruction of Palestinian life.<\/p>\n<p>I am terrified to think that the steady snail-pace of pro-Palestinian solidarity in the US has not recognized how largely it has leaned on the near absolute condition of Palestinian suffering. As long as Palestinians are the sole recipients of death, dying, and wretched life, solidarity with them gains in legitimacy. Any disruption in this balance\u2014which never alters the Palestinians as the landslide majority owners of misery\u2014must be attacked, contained, belittled with moral superiority by allies who had not said much of anything previously about Israel\u2019s decades-long atrocities.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">I am terrified to think that the steady snail-pace of pro-Palestinian solidarity in the US has not recognized how largely it has leaned on the near absolute condition of Palestinian suffering.<\/span>\n<p>When will you begin to truly listen to what Palestinians have been saying for decades?<\/p>\n<p>I am terrified that so many never asked themselves the basic question: do I really believe that Palestinian lives are equal to Jewish lives? For too many, the answer is a resounding No. But they are neither asked this question nor challenged on it. Instead, they are the ones in charge of asking questions. They hide behind the unbearable size of events, interrogate Palestinian ethics, teach Palestinians how they, too, have become pathologies.<\/p>\n<p>Examination of why this is the case should lead only to one question: will you now declare that Palestinian lives are equal to Jewish lives? Try it on for size.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>VIII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>What matters more? The number of Palestinian dead or the number of Palestinians who will endure a life worse than death after the Israeli desire for carnage is sated?<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">I am terrified that so many never asked themselves the basic question: do I really believe that Palestinian lives are equal to Jewish lives?<\/span>\n<p>The former question captivates and deceives us with the mathematics of permissibility\u2014a math we have been indoctrinated in over the decades of American hegemony. Empathy math. If the aim, for example, is twenty thousand Palestinians killed before we decide that this is the threshold of the unacceptable, then it makes sense for the US and Israel to doubt the number of Palestinians they kill, a delay tactic that allows the civilized war machine to get the job done\u2014as Darwish wrote in his \u201cPenultimate Speech\u201d:<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">and if our murder is imperative, then do not<br \/>\nkill the animals that have befriended us, do not kill our yesterday,<br \/>\nyou will lack a truce with our ghosts in barren winter nights,<br \/>\nyou will lack a gray sun and a waning moon for the crime to appear<br \/>\nless festive on the movie screen, so take your time<br \/>\nto kill God\u2026<\/p>\n<p>The latter question, about a life worse than death, is much more untranslatable, almost unimaginable to an American public always on the move, from one generation to another, one redemption to another, one jackpot to another, one changing same to another, as Amiri Baraka put it. In due time it turns into pity, perhaps even a sick romance.<\/p>\n<p>What forgetfulness, what fatigue and ennui will afflict the pro-Palestinian American public after the massacre? Will Palestinians return to their demoted status in the public sphere, as subjects of the temporality of Zionist moral illumination?<\/p>\n<p>But I have a more daring question. The Israeli people at large, the Jewish communities outside Israel that identify strongly or faintly, defensively or hawkishly with Israel, the mainstream Western world, and all expressions of Zionism, what do they want from Palestinians?<\/p>\n<p>In the best-case scenario, I do not think they really know. I am terrified to think that this relentless progression of dispossession and carnage against the Palestinians has reached irreversible, irrational levels. In my dark hours, which increase by the year, I wonder if Israel is unable to examine or defuse its impulse to test the limits of genocide against the Palestinians\u2014because it has not been able to process the genocide that the Nazis committed against the Jewish people. A genocide that was made possible by centuries of European antisemitism, pogroms, silence, and looking away.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">I am terrified to think that this relentless progression of dispossession and carnage against the Palestinians has reached irreversible, irrational levels.<\/span>\n<p>If this is the path we are on, what then, as this path reaches its fulminant stage? Aren\u2019t we there yet? The Palestinians do not need to fully identify, in the flesh, with the Jewish experience of genocide.<\/p>\n<p>Israel does not need to experience the completion of a genocide on another people to truly forgive Europeans for what they have done to the Jewish people.<\/p>\n<p>But what \u201cif our murder is imperative,\u201d as Darwish said? Will it be enough or will Palestinians continue to suffer further comparisons on the grand scale of suffering, further analysis of their deficient, impure victimhood? Or is all this really about Zionism\u2019s imperfect victimhood?<\/p>\n<p>What genocide isn\u2019t enough?<\/p>\n<p>There are countless Jewish people in whom the love and light of the divine lives easily, openly, and they neither want such a catastrophe to befall anyone or, least of all, stain the Jewish memory.<\/p>\n<p>So, before I turn to Toni Morrison\u2019s poem, I ask you, dear reader, to remember that <a href=\"https:\/\/bookshop.org\/a\/132\/9781400033447\"><em>Tar Baby<\/em><\/a>, published in 1981, was set in the Caribbean, and the voice of the monologue can only be heard through the settler-colonial prism and its assimilationist horror. Nonetheless, how repulsed and offended you are after reading the poem is how far you are from laughing at yourself.<\/p>\n<p>I also ask you what Darwish asked in his \u201cPenultimate Speech\u201d: \u201cWon\u2019t you memorize a bit of poetry to halt the slaughter?\u201d A stranger\u2019s echo to William Carlos Williams\u2019s famous verse: \u201cIt is difficult \/ to get the news from poems \/ yet men die miserably every day \/ for lack \/ of what is found there.\u201d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>IX<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\">\u201cBasking in the Cold Light That Came from One of the Killers of the World\u201d<br \/>\n<em>(An excerpt from Toni Morrison<\/em><em>\u2019<\/em><em>s Tar Baby)<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">\u201cThey had not the dignity<br \/>\nof wild animals who did not eat where they<br \/>\ndefecated but they<br \/>\ncould defecate over a whole people<br \/>\nand come there to live<br \/>\nand defecate some more<br \/>\nby tearing up the land<br \/>\nand that is why they loved property so.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">Because they had killed it<br \/>\nsoiled it defecated on it<br \/>\nand they love more than anything<br \/>\nthe places where they shit<br \/>\nwould fight and kill to own<br \/>\nthe cesspools they made<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">and although they called it architecture<br \/>\nit was in fact elaborately built toilets, decorated<br \/>\ntoilets, toilets surrounded with and by<br \/>\nbusiness and enterprise,<br \/>\nin order to have something to do<br \/>\nin between defecations<br \/>\nsince waste was the order of the day<br \/>\nand the ordering principle of the universe<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">and especially the Americans<br \/>\nwho were the worst<br \/>\nbecause they were new<br \/>\nat the business of defecation<br \/>\nspent their whole lives<br \/>\nbathing bathing<br \/>\nbathing washing<br \/>\naway the stench<br \/>\nof the cesspools as though pure soap<br \/>\nhad anything to do with purity.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">That was the sole lesson of their world:<br \/>\nhow to make waste, how to make machines<br \/>\nthat made more waste<br \/>\nhow to make wasteful products<br \/>\nhow to talk waste<br \/>\nhow to study waste<br \/>\nhow to design waste<br \/>\nhow to cure people<br \/>\nwho were sickened by waste<br \/>\nso they can be well enough to endure it<br \/>\nhow to mobilize waste<br \/>\nlegalize waste and how to despise<br \/>\nthe culture that lived<br \/>\nin cloth houses and shit<br \/>\non the ground faraway from where they ate.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">And it would drown them one day<br \/>\nthey would all sink into their own waste<br \/>\nand the waste they had made<br \/>\nof the world and them, finally<br \/>\nthey would know true peace and the happiness<br \/>\nthey had been looking for all along.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">In the meantime<br \/>\nthis one here<br \/>\nwould chew a morsel<br \/>\nof ham and drink white<br \/>\nwine secure<br \/>\nin the knowledge<br \/>\nthat he had defecated<br \/>\non two people<br \/>\nwho had dared to want<br \/>\nsome of his apples.\u201d<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>X<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>Where is the Palestinian Mandela?<br \/>\nWhy is it that only white people ask this question?<\/p>\n<p>Where is the Palestinian Mandela?<br \/>\nWhen will this racist wit stop?<\/p>\n<p>Where is the Palestinian Mandela?<br \/>\nWhere is the Israeli de Klerk?<\/p>\n<p>Where is the Palestinian Mandela?<br \/>\nWe are past the apartheid stage now.<\/p>\n<p>Where is the Palestinian Mandela?<br \/>\nWhy don\u2019t you ask South African brothers and sisters, and they\u2019ll tell you where? Food for thought. You can digest their answer then excrete the rest.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>XI<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>A Palestinian proverb I have heard since I was a kid goes like this: To die along with a collective is a mercy. This is not merely the opposite of dying alone or the equivalent of dying while surrounded by kin or a group of compassionate humans. This is a comforting proverb about collective disaster. The saying is tacitly invoked when a great loss is at hand, a calamity that befalls a multitude, a family, be it financial or medical, for example. You can easily imagine that the proverb originated in a distant past, when famine or massacre decimated entire villages or clans.<\/p>\n<p>To live the experience of collective death in real time, however, is, despite my words, unspeakable. For this Palestinian proverb to become a Palestinian reality devoid of metaphor is a definition of genocide. For Palestinians to run for shelter, pile on top of each other in rooms, and console themselves with dying together is a definition of genocide. For Palestinians to be unable to grieve their private deaths because all and every Palestinian death has become personal within a duration of ruthless murder is a definition of genocide.<\/p>\n<p>What more do you want? How many more arguments will you insist on flipping? Intergenerational trauma does not speak a language of hierarchy across human bodies. Cellularity makes equals of us all. It does not know religion, ethnicity, or alphabet, and does not submit to our timelines that serve our hunger for domination.<\/p>\n<p>In <a href=\"https:\/\/bookshop.org\/a\/132\/9781556595141\"><em>The Silence That Remains<\/em><\/a>, the Palestinian poet and writer Ghassan Zaqtan has a poem titled \u201cCollective Death.\u201d He was probably thinking of the massacres of Sabra and Shatila in 1982 or some other massacre around those years, a massacre he\u2019d been witness to from a distance. It is eerie, uncanny to revisit this poem in 2023, now that we have the advent of live television, social media, and the censorship they practice \u201cfor the crime to appear less festive\u201d:<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 80px;\">Evening didn\u2019t come without its darkness.<br \/>\nWe slept roofless but with cover<br \/>\nand no survivor came in the night<br \/>\nto tell us of the death of others.<br \/>\nThe roads kept whistling<br \/>\nand the place was packed with the murdered<br \/>\nwho came from the neighboring quarter,<br \/>\ntheir screams escaped toward us.<br \/>\nWe saw and heard<br \/>\nthe dead walk on air<br \/>\ntied by the thread of their shock,<br \/>\ntheir rustle pulling our bodies<br \/>\noff our glowing straw mats<br \/>\nto see a glistening blade<br \/>\nthat kept falling over the roads.<br \/>\nThe women gave birth<br \/>\nonly to those who passed.<br \/>\nAnd the women will not give birth.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>XII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>I have another concern. Surveillance as a form of twenty-first century slavery. The Israeli killing of the family of Jazeera reporter Wael Dahdouh on October 25 was not part of indiscriminate madness. They know how to assassinate. One pundit on Israeli TV said of the incident, \u201cToday we knew what the target was. Tomorrow is a different target.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>By killing Dahdouh\u2019s family, they sent a message to all Palestinians who had listened to his voice for nearly two decades, including the last few weeks where he was reporting on live TV about Israeli crimes in Gaza. To break his spirit is to kill so many Palestinian voices in one blow. To watch Wael run in his press gear and slump over the bodies of his wife, son, daughter, and infant grandson is to kill the wife, child, and grandchild of every Palestinian who has come to find in his Palestinian intonation a home. This is exactly what the Israel army did when it assassinated Shireen Abu Akleh on May 11, 2022.<\/p>\n<p>Through advanced technology and digital surveillance, along with collaborators, Israel owns Palestinian lives and bodies, their right to movement, to privacy, to childhood, to dreams. Palestinian children are criminalized as adults at the age of 12, for example. Israel works hard to maintain near-total control over its power to punish Palestinian bodies, should the state deem any of those bodies disobedient or rebellious. The punishment is often brutal, barbaric. Palestinians are confined to narrow spaces, and in the case of Gaza, subjected to a siege that has controlled their caloric intake, their access to healthcare and basic hygiene products, including feminine products.<\/p>\n<span class=\"pullquote\">Palestinians are confined to narrow spaces, and in the case of Gaza, subjected to a siege that has controlled their caloric intake, their access to healthcare and basic hygiene products, including feminine products.<\/span>\n<p>What makes a state obsess over its desire to totally dominate a whole people, to own their bodies between servility and expulsion? What makes an overwhelming majority of a people consign another to oblivion, cut them off from the outside world for decades, mutilate their image and their being into superfluous nonbeings? What people obsess over severing another people from their olive trees? How deadly the olives?<\/p>\n<p>How did Israel get here? How different was the beginning? It is time you ask this question without blaming the Palestinians. Look inward, deeply, kindly, in true mirrors, and win back your heart.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>XIII<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Gift laden with dew. Hiba Abu Nada wrote her final post on social media ten days after she wrote her final poem, hours before she was killed. The movement between the two texts is haunting, unforgettable. The God within and the God above:<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: left; padding-left: 80px;\">Each of us in Gaza is either witness to or martyr for liberation. Each is waiting to see which of the two they\u2019ll become up there with God. We have already started building a new city in Heaven. Doctors without patients. No one bleeds. Teachers in uncrowded classrooms. No yelling at students. New families without pain or sorrow. Journalists writing up and taking photos of eternal love. They\u2019re all from Gaza. In Heaven, the new Gaza is free of siege. It is taking shape now.<\/p>\n<p>Enough. Enough. I want to be happy, happy with my things, as Ghassan Zaqtan wrote, \u201chappy because I have my hand,\u201d \u201chappy and thrilled that my hand, which called to you \/ or touched you \/ is still with me.\u201d And that you\u2019re still with me. I want to be happy with my voice and its foolish joys. I want to tell my children, what? What will I tell my children? What will you tell yours?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I Hiba Abu Nada, 32, wrote and published her final poem ten days before Israeli bombs killed her and many others on October 20, 2023, in Gaza. She had a B.A in organic chemistry and a master\u2019s degree in clinical nutrition. 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